Ok...so I stopped at how hetic my life seems to be. Each day, as these things go on, I see myself being more like my mom with something things and not doing them till the VERY last minute. Like, getting in the shower 5 minutes before I'm supposed to walk out the door, or not doing my projects until the night before. At the same time, I see my dad in me becasue I want to get things done SO fast, that it seems like I'll die waiting for them to happen. I've been in a pretty bad mood today, I think becasue I stayed up late last night and I was woken up by my alarm clock on my phone at 6:30 this morning. Last night, at like 11:00 me and Leo, my cuz went to the beach. There wasn't anyone there and we just walked along it. I think that I was really tired and intoxciated by the ocean that I started to act a little drunk. I was fighting with him about how scw\rewed up our generation is, but thats a WHOLE other post. Anyway, after a while I started to head toward the pool away from the beach and we hung out by the pool with our feet in. I started ranting on about Kyle and how mad I was (which, I'm mad at myself for, because he's such a jerk that he doesn't even deserve my time even thinking about him) and he told me something that Rayna had told me, (albit, it was a little different but...whoes keeping track?) He said that I had to take the chance (BS!) And that the first girl that he liked, didn't, but then about 2 weeks later, she told him that she liked her. Rayna said that he was suprised that someone liked him, and when I told Leo that, he agreed. Dr. Leo said that "He had liked me and thet when I told him that I liked him, he was suprised that I felt that same way" Personally, I think that's a load of BS, but whatever. I don't even like him anymore...I guess when someone treats me the way that they did, they arn't worthy of my time. But then again, I have an addictive personality, (look at my mom and her side of the family for evidence) so maybe, I like guys that push me away and treat me like the gum on their shoe...nah. I hope not, but that's what the evidence seems to be telling me. Pray to God that it isn't the case, and If it is, it would be nice if they had a program like AA for it. Well, I need to go. I have about 30 minutes to kill before I have to meet my mom, and I'm only allowed on the computer for 15 minutes, (which I've been on for 25 minutes! Shame on me) So...I need to go.
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