Well, I can already tell that today is going to be such a good day.
I woke up with a headache, and then, I had to take someone to school on short notice, and on top of everything else, I got into a fight with my best friend. Not that she's really been my best friend these past few months, since she's too busy with her boyfriend and has turned into a sarcastic bitch 1/2 the time.
It sucks. I know I wasn't always the greatest friend, but I was there for her when she needed it, and had she just told me that she really wanted/needed to hang out with her, I would have. But she didn't say anything, so I didn't. That's not to say that I never hung out with her, I just didn't hang out with her that often.
Back to this morning:
We get to school at the same time. Yesterday she was up at FSU visiting her brother, and she got back last night. I have Flight Of The Lawnchair Man rehearsals today (much like every day, and I still can't get enough of it) and since she is my Assistant Stage Manager, and we are doing a run of the first act, I want her, my other ASM and the Lighting Designer and the Assistant Lighting Designer there. I figured that after rehearsal we could maybe grab coffee, but she was going to be hanging out with her boyfriend. No surprise there. I was jokingly giving her a hard time (it's the only way that I can deal with her constant sarcasm). She started complaining that I never saw her last year, and I told her that had she asked, I would have. She said that she just decided to stay quite and be a 3rd wheel. I told her that she didn't really have a right to complain then, because she always kept quite. I was still joking, and even told her that I wasn't really that upset, and that I was kinda just joking with her. She got pissed and said that she didn't like it because she feels like that's all I do. If you're around me enough, most of the time I don't joke enough and I'm too serious, but apparently not to her. I told her that I joke so much because I can't deal with her sarcasm all the time. She said fine, and we just stopped talking. I'm not sure we're going to be talking for a while. I feel like I should apologize, but I don't at the same time because all I wanted was to see my best friend, who I never see and who I need, because I don't really have anyone else.
Wow. That sucks, I don't have anyone else. Well, I have one person, but it's not like he's there for me anymore, so I'm really alone.
I mean, I have some friends that I can talk to, but no one that I'm really close to, so I'm screwed.
Class is almost over.
Bye.
